12 April 05
On Seeing More Butterflies
Spaghetti-strapped, I see them flutter by
Their nasal twangs submerged in pony tails
They yearn for depth, these quiet butterflies.
They clutch their tomes, where passion’s in supply
An exercise routine beyond the pale
Spaghetti-strapped, I see them flutter by.
From Donne to Plath, they read, they sink, they sigh
The bell jar beckons with its lonely veil.
They long for depth, these quiet butterflies.
They see the book. They smile. They pay. They buy.
The vortex draws them louder than a gale:
Spaghetti-strapped, I see them long to die.
Profundity ensnares them: mirror, spy.
The oven-abyss calls – it’s so female.
They whisper “death,” these quiet butterflies.
I rail, unheard, against the sylvan lie
Whose petulance bores into wings so frail
This yen for depth will kill my butterflies:
Protruding ribs, preparing soon to die.
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This one really sings, especially read out loud.
”...their nasal twangs submerged in pony tails…”
Fabulous.
And true.
Why are those butterflies so drawn to death? Are their lives so empty, so dull, so lacking in their own poetry and passion?
Why are they so eager to worship others rather than become objects of worship?
We’re all drawn to it, aren’t we? A deeper, more real story, no matter what the cost—
If this isn’t the story, (“here, now, quick, always!”)—nothing is, but the clever people who write books are so good at making it seem like the real story is somewhere else—
Lovely, lovely poem, Pica
Natalie: I’m not sure why they’re so drawn to death. This is a tiny minority of students, but they’re quite easy to spot (there are LOTS of students with eating disorders but the Plath groupies are a very small subset). What’s almost more alarming than this is the proportion of students taking antidepressants… Lorianne must know all about this, she actually teaches them. I just live around them. Thirty thousand of them. We shop in the same bookstores.
Dale—yes, I think we are all drawn to it in some ways, though I find I have come to appreciate my butterfly qualities and have stopped trying to compete with the Drumbeats of Depth. I’m disturbed, however, that these kids find it necessary to obliterate themselves in order to feel “real,” though to be fair to them the culture’s not helping them a lot—at least they see through the doublespeak. I just wish they’d read Woolf—I suppose what I mean is that I think they mistake sticking your head in the oven for being the Real Thing Whatever That Is.
Lorianne—I don’t know why spring, though I suspect it is, like you say, because that’s when they emerge.